A little on my alter egos

My alter egos are very different. At least to me they are. The goblin is bossy, prissy, and almost confident. While the dragon is more lovable, caring, and hopeful. Both of them are extensions of myself and allow me opportunities to explore various ideas and situations that I can't deal with in rl.

I'm not entirely sure which one that I enjoy being anymore. They each have their own circles of friends and different experiences that have helped mold them into what they are. Some of those friendships have started to overlap lately. Not that it's a bad thing, it just leads to some interesting interactions as I lapse into a state of betweeness while being either one. Betweeness is probably not a word, but it's the only way that I can explain it in an almost clear manner.

I guess it would make more sense with an explanation about how they each came to be, the reasoning for their existence. The goblin was my first walk into Second Life. She's a character that has become more developed over time, and currently she has an inventory of almost 70,000 pieces. She's worked in clubs doing various functions, and as her I've explored a lot of sims and met many different people.

The dragon is a much younger character. I originally created her as a way to poke around sl without worrying about the responsibilities the goblin had. People didn't know me, and I was ok with that. It was almost a treat to be able to explore without the worries of upsetting anyone. I had no worries, no cares, and no responsibilities. I stopped playing her for a long time, because I was content being the goblin.

Then came my meltdown. A case of the drama llama's invaded my second life. It was highly stressful to me and I didn't know how to react to it. I honestly still don't. Part of me feels worried just typing and thinking about it. But This blog is about figuring out who I am. What I am.

What am I? Am I a dragon? Am I a goblin? Am I both? Can I really keep both persona's up and active? Do I need to make a decision? Should I make a decision? I don't know at this moment what my choices really are. I guess that my choices are rather simple. Be one or be the other, or maybe be none at all. But then I could be both of them. I just don't know right now what to think or do anymore.

Maybe it's almost time for me to move on? Is there a place where avatar's go when their consciousnesses give up? Do they have a place where they go to retire? It might be interesting to see... an avatar retirement home.